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kilroySo, teaching my classes at Parkland has given me a certain amount of energy and hope again. I've got scads more responsibility now, but the challenge is at least a little energizing. I leave every day I teach exhausted, but usually in a good way. I've been preparing for things ahead of time, actually planning activities and handouts, and in general been gradually getting on top of things again. Plus today is payday, so I should be able to whack a good portion of debt away this week.
And my creative life has been gearing up again as well. Not in any sense that I was really expecting, but it's there-- and I intend to ride it for all it's worth.
But.
Today I teach ESL again. And to a certain extent it's fun, but mostly it's a combination of scary and boring. I feel like I'm laying bricks in that classroom; repetitive exercises over and over again. I know that I could be teaching better, and I know that it probably ain't so hot for the students either... but I'm not sure how to fix it and I sure as hell am not finding the energy. With my other classes, I wake up, get in the shower, and start having ideas pretty much as soon as the day starts. With ESL I mostly sit at my desk and look blankly at the pile of books.
I don't think I'll be doing this again. I just hope I can ride out the semester without either screwing it up for my students too badly or getting really depressed about it.
And my creative life has been gearing up again as well. Not in any sense that I was really expecting, but it's there-- and I intend to ride it for all it's worth.
But.
Today I teach ESL again. And to a certain extent it's fun, but mostly it's a combination of scary and boring. I feel like I'm laying bricks in that classroom; repetitive exercises over and over again. I know that I could be teaching better, and I know that it probably ain't so hot for the students either... but I'm not sure how to fix it and I sure as hell am not finding the energy. With my other classes, I wake up, get in the shower, and start having ideas pretty much as soon as the day starts. With ESL I mostly sit at my desk and look blankly at the pile of books.
I don't think I'll be doing this again. I just hope I can ride out the semester without either screwing it up for my students too badly or getting really depressed about it.