Early New Years

In case it wasn't blindingly obvious, I'm still in the middle of the Month of Mess. Half the things I'm saying on here will probably have no relevance to how things actually end up either for myself or my friends; and half the things here are going to contradict each other. But saying them is part of the process, nonsense or no. So I say them.

Today's topic is very simple. One of my friends moved away recently, and in the meantime she's changed. This has been really hard for me to internalize; she's not HERE, so my subconscious hasn't quite grasped the concept yet. I've been expecting the same sorts of responses from her that I used to get-- and not getting them, and being all depressed about it.

Well she and I both deserve better. So I'm making a resolution. I need to figure out who she is now, which means I need to really listen to her when she talks, and not filter what she's saying through my now defunct expectations. Effectively, I have to start my relationship with her over from scratch; and it may not develop again for a while, since she is still across the U.S. from me. But better to wait than make mistakes.

Besides, this way I get to enjoy getting to know her all over again. :-)