![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kilroyI have work to do today. I have really important work to do today of which more should probably have been done last week. And I'm not doing it. I'm jittery, my chest hurts, and I can't concentrate.
There is no REASON for this. The work is not that difficult and no one is going to point the enormous finger of blame at me. But I still feel like an animal caught in a trap. There is physical anxiety here, almost enough to make my hands shake.
Days like this make me want to take every person who perpetuates the "Well, you can just take a deep breath and get over it!" idea without ever experiencing any form of mental illness and beat them over the head with a shovel. Days like this also make me want to crawl into a hole and hide until the apocalypse, when all my other problems become irrelevant.
There is no REASON for this. The work is not that difficult and no one is going to point the enormous finger of blame at me. But I still feel like an animal caught in a trap. There is physical anxiety here, almost enough to make my hands shake.
Days like this make me want to take every person who perpetuates the "Well, you can just take a deep breath and get over it!" idea without ever experiencing any form of mental illness and beat them over the head with a shovel. Days like this also make me want to crawl into a hole and hide until the apocalypse, when all my other problems become irrelevant.