The Good with the Bad 8-8-04
Aug. 8th, 2004 05:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kilroyLessons for the weekend:
1) I've started talking to myself a lot more over the past few years. I don't consider this all that unhealthy, but it is very different than I used to be.
2) Being depressed makes you tired. Sleeping is also an excellent escape. Therefore I've been sleeping a hell of a lot.
3) All these books I read and movies I watch aren't a waste of time-- they're research. Almost every good author is totally crazy about research, so I'm in good company. Now I just need to do more producing and a little less absorbing.
4) Being alone may be the biggest double-edged sword of depression. There are times when it's absolutely great and totally necessary, and there are other times when it's the worst possible idea ever. I just wish I could tell one from the other.
5) When you have an attack, the first funny thing you hear afterwards is really funny.
6) It's not depression. I'm not going to go back and correct the above statements, because that's what I originally typed... but even after all this time, long since I realized what was actually going on, I still call it "depression" because it's a shorthand that people can understand. I'm somewhat annoyed at myself for using that terminology here, but it's easier than saying "the condition I'm in" and sounds less comedic than "High Anxiety." Maybe I'll figure out a better way to say it at some point.
1) I've started talking to myself a lot more over the past few years. I don't consider this all that unhealthy, but it is very different than I used to be.
2) Being depressed makes you tired. Sleeping is also an excellent escape. Therefore I've been sleeping a hell of a lot.
3) All these books I read and movies I watch aren't a waste of time-- they're research. Almost every good author is totally crazy about research, so I'm in good company. Now I just need to do more producing and a little less absorbing.
4) Being alone may be the biggest double-edged sword of depression. There are times when it's absolutely great and totally necessary, and there are other times when it's the worst possible idea ever. I just wish I could tell one from the other.
5) When you have an attack, the first funny thing you hear afterwards is really funny.
6) It's not depression. I'm not going to go back and correct the above statements, because that's what I originally typed... but even after all this time, long since I realized what was actually going on, I still call it "depression" because it's a shorthand that people can understand. I'm somewhat annoyed at myself for using that terminology here, but it's easier than saying "the condition I'm in" and sounds less comedic than "High Anxiety." Maybe I'll figure out a better way to say it at some point.